I am sitting here on this fine Wednesday morning not feeling particularly HAPPY. All the optimism, excitement, sense of purpose and good intentions seem to have floated away into the frigid airs here in Montréal and I am left feeling, well, kind of BLAH.
Why?!! How could I have gone from being filled with SO MUCH lightness and hope a few days ago to sitting here with aching muscles and bones and being all grumbly and cranky and feeling so removed from how I really want to feel? What is WRONG with me? I asked myself this question today, multiple times in fact. And then I found my answer. Are you ready for it? Are you?
There is nothing “wrong” with me. I am perfectly un-perfect in my grumbly crankiness. Not every second of every day is happy. In fact, how freaking BORING would that be? How sad would it be to not know the opposite of happy, so when HAPPY does show up in all it’s glory we can actually recognize it and love it and appreciate the hell out of it?
So folks, today I fully embrace my cranky ass with deep love and appreciation for I know that my HAPPY is coming back, one day (hopefully soon!), and when she shows her lovely face and warms my un-perfect soul, I will hold her close and say THANK YOU for being here.
My wish for you, you NOVEL LIFERS, is to embrace it all. Find the blessing in the mess, the bad mood, the wrong turn, and then know that something wonderful is on the other side or a bit further down the road and you’ll be so HAPPY when you meet it again.
peace and love. always.